March 22, 2008
Speaking in Sacrament Meeting! YIKES!
So here I am, working on my talk for sacrament meeting. Suffering from a migraine and only wanting to sleep. I'm feeling extremely overwhelmed to be the Easter program. As I look back on my life in the church, speaking has never been something that stressed me out. Teaching always seemed to be a breeze. So why am I having such a hard time now? Well, I figured it out. Speaking in church or teaching are not like riding a bike. It's been almost 5 years since we last spoke in church. We were asked to speak in church in Michigan, but it was for two weeks after I was to be back in Utah. So we didn't have to speak that time. Then we were in the condo ward, where we never really got involved. We knew it was super temporary- so no sacrament talks there. Now, we've been in our ward for a year and we aren't going anywhere, so they got us. Now, if we'd been teaching during that 5 year, this wouldn't be as big of a deal. Unfortunately, it's been 3 years since I've had a calling. Last summer I went to the bishop and asked for a calling, but apparently there just isn't the right one for me, right now. Maybe it's because I'm a workaholic and a mom. Who knows, but either way, this talk is STRESSING ME OUT!!!!! I've got 7 minutes written and 6 more to go.